Mumbles : Conceptions

There's something weird I'm thinking about lately.
I'd probably write this only in the next 6 or 7 minutes, waiting for my download to finish.

When we get upset because of others, their words, their attitude, their actions toward us, we'd say something bad about them, from our perspectives.
When we like something a person has, money, looks, power, attitude, brain, we'd say something good about him/her to flatter or honestly say the things we like.
We'd do these two, in front or behind the persons we are dealing with.

I tried some.
I talk directly when I get upset, which causes visible dislikes.
I talk and curse when no one else is around, and I end up feeling mad. Still.
I talk to the people I could trust (or at least I think I could trust), and two options came up; the secret leaks, and the secret is safe, but you still have to let someone know about this issue.

Or, I act as if nothing happens to save relationships. The worst option I could ever bear.

My conceptions of others had changed when I was a kid. What I can assure of is, people would do anything to save themselves.
People would not learn mistakes as fast as you want them to, if you don't tell them directly. But they also hate you if you talk directly. This part is a little weird to me.

People, with higher pride are shamelessly dragging what they want to have. Obviously. Sometimes over acting.
People with lower pride would think twice and let others take what they should have.

People do weird things.
Well at least, weird to me. In my conceptions. In my perceptions.
Like in a labirynth, I'm lost. In my perceptions. In my conceptions.
I'd like to go back to the original form, but the way back is seemingly too far and difficult to understand.